Seek Him. Love Him. Trust Him. Abide in Him. Follow Him. Repeat.
When God settles your restless heart with His Word…it’s just so sweet, friends.
I have just been so blessed by reviewing past moments with God in The Word and what I just read a few moments ago just reiterated those very same past reflections and lessons.
Tomorrow I set out for a little traveling, tying up some loose ends and to more definitively face the reality that some huge changes are about to take place in my life, and that I will actually have to make some big decisions rather soon. I’m guessing that subconsciously, this may have had to do with why I just couldn’t fall asleep last night. I knew that often God may be calling us to spend special time with Him, listening to His special messages for us in the stillness of the night. So I played a sermon as I lay wide awake, hoping I would be lulled to sleep by being put at rest with God’s word. But I totally should’ve known better; when I listen to a song with words or a sermon, I literally hang on every word…silly me 😌 . While it was a blessing, I still couldn’t sleep. I was literally wide awake and just couldn’t understand. I started to read, and not long after finally found some rest. It’s interesting that I was reading from the chapter “In Joseph’s Tomb” in the book The Desire of Ages about the life of Christ, and the opening words of the chapter were, “At last Jesus was at rest.” Soon after I was asleep.😌
Today, I ran errands to prepare for my travels tomorrow. You know…getting “travel food”, organizing, packing, cleaning, etc. And my mind just wasn’t at total peace. I couldn’t put my finger on why. I also had a goal I wanted to reach with the total amount of school work I wanted to get done today so I was working on that too. And I got to a point where I just could not read further. My heart wasn’t and peace; my mind couldn’t focus on “Intro to IT”.✋
My soul needed something deeper right then and there.
The only thing I wanted to do and felt would bring me peace was to be at the feet of Jesus. I knew I wouldn’t get the work done that I wanted to, but only Jesus could fulfill the longing of my soul.
Isaiah 26:3 tells us that if our minds our stayed on God, He will keep us in perfect peace because we trust in Him.
I needed to stay my mind on God. So I prayed. As I was praying, not even knowing what to ask for, I “heard” God calling to my heart to seek Him in His Word for some specific answers.
I was impressed to pick up where I had last left off in my “consecutive Old Testament readings” (my “reading straight through the Old Testament journey”).
So God led me back there again. Well, as I was reading, I flipped back through my Journaling Bible illustrations, and was so blessed. The answer to all of my questions that were subconsciously keeping me from having rest – physically and emotionally…was so clear.
Go FULLY after The Lord. Walk with God and in HIS ways with ALL of my heart. I could be as wise as Solomon was and have all the answers I’m looking for…so much knowledge, wisdom and understanding. I could have so much “zeal” like Jehu for The Lord and doing His work. I could know just what to do to please and be successful in the eyes of many, and I could do so much work for the cause of God, but God firstly wants ALL OF MY HEART, and for me to pursue ALL OF HIM with reckless abandon. Because with all the knowledge and wisdom and understanding in the world, and with all the “zeal” for God’s work, if I don’t know God and seek Him fully, I will only end up lost, choosing the world over life. It’s really “all or nothing”.
The questions I knew I would have to face head on and soon answer…the questions of what should I do? Where should I go? Who am I to be? The answers will come from God quite clearly the more I come to know Him more clearly.
It’s quite simple. Go fully after HIM. Not the answers. Just HIM. Because HE IS the answer to all of my questions….ah…
… 🎵 “be thou the glorious answer to all my questionings”🎵
To seek Him with “reckless abandon“?
Reckless: careless of consequences.
Abandon: to give up to the control or influence of another person or agent; to give up with the intent of never again claiming a right or interest in.
You know…to the world…it may seem pretty “reckless” in a negative way, to just go 100% after God and HIS way and will for my life alone, “careless of consequences” with “abandon” – giving up total control of my life to Him with “the intent of never again claiming” it. #goosebumps
But you know what? To know God is to love Him. To love Him is to trust Him. Everything I heard and read from last night up until this evening…hmm even from this past Sabbath’s sermon, has been driving this into my heart.
Seek Him. Love Him. Trust Him. Abide in Him. Follow Him. Repeat.
Seek ye FIRST the KINGDOM of GOD and HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, and ALL these things shall be added unto you…
He just wants us to know Him. To walk with Him as our closest Friend. To trust Him with everything and to be open to everything He has in store for us. Why do we make things so complicated? Why do we trust in our own abilities and planning or give in to the pressures and requirements of the world for our lives?
Perhaps because we know the world’s ways more than we know God’s? 😧 Perhaps because we want to please those in the world more than we want to please God?
I feel like God has answered so many of my current questions just from these few moments in His Word as I was thirsted for His water of life. I think I know what path I need to take. But even if I’m not 100% sure, it’s ok. I have some time…and many moments with Him until I must choose. And mainly because my focus right now is just running after Him…wanting to know Him with everything in me. Even if I can’t see clearly what’s right ahead of me. That’s why we have the Word of God.
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” -Psalm 119:105
A lamp lights the way right in front of you; you aren’t able to see the whole path ahead clearly, but you can see just enough to take the next step.
And that’s enough.
Step, by step….moment by moment….and day by day walking with God. It’s enough.
This is what our church needs. Disciples of Christ that are willing to be so open to God’s will, and who put following Him – seeking and going full after Him before their own plans, ideas and dreams. To say “Here am I, Lord send me.” I think of those disciples who left their nets, their families, their occupations, ideas and plans for their lives to follow a man named Jesus whom they had just met. They were convicted.
And I am convicted, and I now have peace.
I mean…I don’t think we understand just how much we really have to know and love God to be able to stand true to Him in these last days as Christians. He’s calling us so much deeper….so much higher.
I love to see how God grows us as we grow up in Christ. I’m loving how as I’m growing closer to God, when I’m facing trials, I run to The Word more and more. Not to my family or friends, not to music, long walks, YouTube videos, zoning out, or anything else that temporarily takes my mind off of the issues at hand…but to His Word, His promises and one-on-one, heart-to-heart communion with Him to face them head on. God’s grace is sufficient. He is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
“When God says stop “trying” and start abiding.” Video to come. My heart is full. 💗